Penny Arcade
Hoarfrost
—for Marianne
There’s heart break
I heard the crack
Amazing
I am amazed
that there are still places in my heart that can break
Nothing has changed much
Since I was 13
I still approach love
Like a famished animal
In a burnt out landscape
Love is a lottery
Sometimes I play
Sometimes I don't
There are small tears
Swells
At the corner of my eyes
I want what others have
and I cannot have it
I cannot
I have gone from Aphrodite to Artemis
From the ocean swell to a barren rocky place
Still here there is also beauty
Invisible like electric fence
a perimeter lies around my heart
unpassable
one would need the password
but like every other password
I have forgotten it
These are old feelings
The source forgotten
How furtively I still search for love
Like a man with a Geiger counter
I pan for possibility
guessing where I might find it
I think
It must be here – there
Somewhere.
Bodhissattva
—for John Giorno
I reside in your heart
Your mind the waiting room
I never made it to be your friend
There was only the animal connectedness
Something like family
Something like relation
But I never became you in the real sense
Of people in love
Who pass thru their own skin
To reach the other.
We are poets
We are the stars at night
We twinkle in proximity but never
On top of each other
We are the sun and the moon
Like Francis and sister Clare
You are a lunatic
A hermit
On top of Mt Li Foy
In the forest it is always dark
The canopy of trees
The wolves come out at dawn
Penny Arcade, aka Susana Ventura, is a poet, essayist, spoken word, video & theatre maker who creates long form, text-based performance, a form of experimental theatre that investigates the boundaries between traditional theatre and performance art based on her poetic practice. Her focus on the creation of community as the goal of performance and her use of performance as a transformative act mark her as a true original in international theatre. Since 1999 she has co-helmed The Lower East Side Biography Project: Stemming The Tide of Cultural Amnesia with her 30 year collaborator Steve Zehentner.
She’s contributed to new art forms every decade since 1968 – experimental theatre and film with The Playhouse of The Ridiculous and as an Andy Warhol Superstar in the 1960’s, conceptual art in the 1970’s, performance art and spoken word in the 1980’s. In 1990 she spearheaded the international neo burlesque movement with her anti-censorship show Bitch!Dyke!Faghag!Whore! a blend of erotic dance and humanist politics. She's the author of 16 full length works, hundreds of performances pieces, lectures, interviews all available on https://www.patreon.com/PennyArcade by donation. A partial collection of her scripts and ephemera was published by in hardcover by Semiotext in 2010 Bad Reputation. www.pennyarcade.tv